It's all very unexpected.
It just happened one day a few months ago and ever since then, it comes and goes but it's never stronger than when I'm in the school playground or when I'm in certain shops.
It just comes on me - `tick, tock, tick, tock'.
The last time I felt like this was in my late thirties and my biological clock took over my life.
I always knew I wanted to be a mother and now that I have two children, I had expected never to hear the familiar `tick, tock' every again.
But here I am, 42, a mother-of-two and broody beyond words.
It started off a quiet ticking noise until a few weeks ago, then I saw James's little friend in the playground with his dad and his new baby sister, and she was just a darling.
My hormones went haywire.
Now, every time I see a pram or baby clothes in the shops or read about one of my favourite celebrities having a new baby, my biological clock just begins to tick - loudly.
But why, because things are perfect as they are.
At the minute, we all fit in one car and we all fit in our current home, thank goodness.
And Abbie and James are now at the age where they are becoming more independent and life is getting a little easier - so why is my body telling me to go again?
Friends tell me to think back to the exhausting night feeds and the sickness and worse but somehow, I don't remember it being that bad.
I even have one friend who describes the newborn stage as being akin to fighting a war.
I suppose I'm wondering, is it normal to be feeling like this and does it happen to everyone - or not?
Is it because my body is slowly moving towards the land of menopausal mayhem?
Given the times we are living in, life would surely be so much harder if another little McConville arrived - wouldn't it?
I am so lucky and blessed to have what I have already - so why change that?
However, there's just something about giving Abbie and James a little sister or brother and if I'm honest, I miss pushing a pram and all the excitement a newborn brings.
Maybe it's all just some kind of fantasy prompted by the sight of any infant - and their little fingers and tiny toes and baby smell.
There's also my age - am I too old now at 42 to even be thinking about it? And maybe it's just that I feel that somehow my window of opportunity is closing and my time is running out.
Or maybe the pandemic has taken its toll on me mentally and I've lost my grip on reality.
If only I could silence the ticking, that would be a great help - you would think the shouting, out-of-tune singing and impromptu discos would overpower that but not so much.
Tick, tock, tick, tock.......
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Whoopi Goldberg has revealed she is working to get Sister Act 3 made.
The 64-year-old actress, who played Sister Mary Clarence, said she would love to return to the popular franchise, which first hit cinemas in 1992.
The star said she is currently "working diligently to try to figure out how to get the gang together and come back".
The original movies also starred Maggie Smith and Kathy Najimy.
This is great news.
I really hope it works out because I will be front and centre to see it.
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